It seems harder to juggle between them these days...

Work is taking up a major part of my life... responsibility are catching up on me...
there are many things to do and stuff to attend to...

slowly i realize that living is not for myself but for the people around me... we live to support the people around us and in turn they support us...

however in Singapore, society is cruel and things are fast... we are like stuck to this tiny island that restrict so many in order to create peace... then again is there such a word?

anyway going to tioman on the 10th and currently i am left with $40 in my bank... haiz~

cost of living is so damn expensive and seriously i did not anyhow spend my money this month lor... only 1 item that is less then 30 bought... sucky month...

people around me are also getting more hot tempered... i wonder why... hopefully the sudden cooling weather would cool them down too...

things does not goes smoothly for me this month... however a conversation on my birthday cheered me up... although the conversation is very casual i just feel happy...

i guess i am easily contented...

anyway need to learn how to express myself better... going to treat the 2 year in army which is round the corner to build up my personality... hope it help...

Thanks guyz for helping me celebrate my birthday haha.

Really surprise me there by driving all the way to my house haha.

quite enjoyable although we did do much haha.

drove Dave's rented car too haha ok i still sucked at doing right turns... =X

anyway my birthday wish partially came true haha hope it will totally come true XD

haha found some interesting sites and added them to the right hand side of my blog.

anyway one is for keeping fit since many are going into army soon haha and well the next hmm...

Its a perfume sites and i find it quite cheap... especially since now most of us working liao so might consider :D

Ok its the time again to celebrate this day call mother's day and here's what my mum got :D

bear from my sis cake from me :D

paiseh abit emo so have to blog... some stuff are never meant to be forgotten or rather can nvr be forgotten... sometimes i seriously doubt my own personality... i can't stand being alone yet i detest crowd because I can't communicate well...

the world is a weird thing... or rather human is a weird creature... we always strive hard to get what we want yet when we get them we feel empty... when we dun get them we will feel sad however we nvr stop dreaming of getting what we want...

i personally enjoy dreaming... sometimes i wonder if it is because i am too weak to strive for what i want in life... i do not have confident...

it seem weird that a introvert would always want to stand out in crowd to proof to other that he is not an introvert yet deep down it is so untrue...

even i dun understand this... i noe i am one who is like so... things dun work so well... after some time u forget who u r... and u lose confident...

bit by bit... drifting losing yourself...

i am lucky that i am a super positive emo person... okay quite contradicting but whenever i feel emo i just help to tell every1 and i will feel better haha... i am happy that such a invention call blog was created haha... ok feeling alot better liao :D

LOL finally haha after 2 day of hard work XD


92 words

Speedtest

lets see... ppl all haves different sides of them... caring... cruel... kind... evil...

for me i have this feeling of being a hypocrite sometimes... perhapz its from my experience... perhapz its from my work during sales...

the society does not allow pure and innocent to survive... this is a cruel society, singapore... it truely is... any false move and you dun even noe why u fell...

nothing is certain in this fast pace city...

you might feel secure and safe now but if you dun learn to protect urself... to hide ur weakness well... thats it for you...

but if you think again... how can some1 hide himself all the time... to hide this and that... to show out a side that he himself know is not him...

how could this be even possible rite... living as another person in the same shell... faking laughter and joy... is this truely living???

haha hmm.... everyone will sometimes need ppl for support... in this cruel world where one could fall at any time... we need support... strong support we can trust... where we can be ourself...

there is no need to smile at some1 u hate... do the stuff u dun like just because of reasons...

that is when family and friends come in... you know they wont harm you and you know you can rely on them... they might be harsh sometimes but there are all for your own good... its okay to be childish... its okay to do stupid stuff... besides who can define stupid... you? me? its the society man.... shaping us into who we are...

but then again is every1 trustable??? can we truely trust all friends??? i mean it might be me but well that is the society as of today... i am lucky i still have friends that i can trust... family member that i can rely on... but now is still now...

as of sept 15 i will be entering army... new friends new environment new life... who know what could happen after the cruel 2 years... things change.... ppl change... can we still trust who we trust???

even as of now i feel that my personality is splitting... i am one person infront of my family... another infront of friends... each group of friends... another infront of collegue... another when alone... who am i???

which side is the real me???

but there is one thing i do noe...

i cant live alone and i am glad that i am not alone...

ok here is the reply

Thank you for your applicationa and your interest in studying at our university.

We apprecuate the time and effort you took in applying to us. Each application we receive has its merits. With the record number of applications we received this year, competition for limited places has been very strong.

I guess i dun have to carry on haha

welll this is expected...

nvm i still got SIM haha have to start saving money for it liao...