lets see... ppl all haves different sides of them... caring... cruel... kind... evil...

for me i have this feeling of being a hypocrite sometimes... perhapz its from my experience... perhapz its from my work during sales...

the society does not allow pure and innocent to survive... this is a cruel society, singapore... it truely is... any false move and you dun even noe why u fell...

nothing is certain in this fast pace city...

you might feel secure and safe now but if you dun learn to protect urself... to hide ur weakness well... thats it for you...

but if you think again... how can some1 hide himself all the time... to hide this and that... to show out a side that he himself know is not him...

how could this be even possible rite... living as another person in the same shell... faking laughter and joy... is this truely living???

haha hmm.... everyone will sometimes need ppl for support... in this cruel world where one could fall at any time... we need support... strong support we can trust... where we can be ourself...

there is no need to smile at some1 u hate... do the stuff u dun like just because of reasons...

that is when family and friends come in... you know they wont harm you and you know you can rely on them... they might be harsh sometimes but there are all for your own good... its okay to be childish... its okay to do stupid stuff... besides who can define stupid... you? me? its the society man.... shaping us into who we are...

but then again is every1 trustable??? can we truely trust all friends??? i mean it might be me but well that is the society as of today... i am lucky i still have friends that i can trust... family member that i can rely on... but now is still now...

as of sept 15 i will be entering army... new friends new environment new life... who know what could happen after the cruel 2 years... things change.... ppl change... can we still trust who we trust???

even as of now i feel that my personality is splitting... i am one person infront of my family... another infront of friends... each group of friends... another infront of collegue... another when alone... who am i???

which side is the real me???

but there is one thing i do noe...

i cant live alone and i am glad that i am not alone...