I never though i would do it but i did haha finish 21km!!!
so glad i did that as well... been doing nothing much these few days anyway... good to have some exercise...

days are getting boring too, not that previously was any better. i am still hanging on to the hope that life would get better so lets wait and see...

got tons of photo to take and upload as well but well camera not with me and my handphone is basically non-camera...

also today i realise that i cannot even operate a cyber shot phone haha... and neither can the owner lol... being in army too long just make us noob at all these equipment haha..

happiness, its a very simple word yet it mean so much... it been awhile now and i really feel like i no longer feel happiness... so how does it feel to be happy? what is happiness? why can't i be happy? the above mentioned sound so emo too...

but recently i really feel nothing but sadness and frustration... i feel so small and so helpless... because of that i think i have been desperately trying to do something... something to make me feel better... but what i did recently only seems to make myself feel worst... so what exactly should i do??

it just seems to get harder and harder for me... sometimes i truly feel like just taking a break and doing nothing... do some soul searching and try to find a solution if a solution does exist...

it seems just like yesterday that i am in poly and being the optimistic me... no worries or at least not showing any and always able to find a way around my problems... hanging around with my friends make me happy, playing simple games make me happy, just sitting in the lab doing programming and web design make me happy... and now?

it just doesn't seems so anymore...

seriously hope that this phase end asap.